It’s just that a few hours ago last year, I was scared, insecure, and very nervous.

We went through a lot together, we were just friends but we pushed through everything we went through, there hasn’t been a single day that we haven’t talked and if we didn’t, everything would seem so miss-placed, everything would seem so dull and meaningless, like she’s just the sun shining upon, giving not only rays of hope but the strength to go with it, the strength that keeps me going forward and hope for a better future, with a smile on my face.

Nothing left to say..

All the mixed feelings that fills the heart just has a way of getting to your brain, I wonder if that’s why they call love blind ? I wouldn’t know, god knows i’ll never know, words aren’t enough to describe those feelings of love and joy, but hey- at least I’m trying right ?

What was I ?

I was but a sad person with a sad loveless life, engulfed by all the misery surrounding him.

What am I ?

Now, lets just say I wake up with a smile and sleep with a smirk, love can do wonders.

It feels so damn right ! It’s one of the few decisions in life that I will probably never, ever, regret no matter what happens,cause she taught me to never regret what I chose, for that’s very naive and useless, and to just focus on the present and work for the future.

There’s so much to be said, but not enough words to describe..

She made a better man out of me, I’m not afraid to admit it, because it’s the truth and nothing but the truth, but you know what ?

I love her.

And that is, also, true.

Happy one year, Dana.

Happy one year, us.

<3

well then welcome to my world.

One thing I noticed is that every Mosque there has it's own kinddap' Turkish design

I was online from my dad Blackberry, either that or listening to music or playing PSP, but basically stuff that isolate me from the world around me while I stare at the amazing views there, so isolated that I couldn’t hear my little sister crying, and frankly she’s the only one I actually kindda like out of my 5 siblings, maybe cause she’s the cutest or the youngest ? I wouldn’t know, I just know that unlike my other siblings I can’t get myself to hate her, not a single bit.

My littile sister Lulu <3

We seem to have swayed a little off topic here, I get too damn emotional when it comes to her, anyway ! back to Turkey, we have to take a boat to get to Yalova, and might I add, I love boats, I don’t get sea sick or all that crap, but the only phobia I have that might make me have a panic attack on a boat, deep dark sea water, don’t get me wrong, see the thing is I can swim, it’s just that it’s kindda hard to swim when you’re naturally afraid of deep dark water, so there you go, we reached a bridge and I think I have a fear of walking on bridges too ? but I think it’s part of being afraid of hights.. yes, I’m a mentally screwed up person, don’t judge me.

As far as I know that should be the Mediterranean sea, don't take my word for it though.

We finally reached the boat, we put the car there and went upstairs, it wasn’t much of a long cruise since Yaluva was 30 minutes away, but it was really fun, the weather was amazing, and the people are friendly although people there dont really speak English or Arabic, the languages I actually know, they only now Turkish, at least most of them.

Was sitting down and thought that was a good angle to shoot a picture or two.

Again, random picture.

So after another hour in the car, we’re there ! time to explore for a while with the camera set and ready to snap !

I dont know why, but the tree in the following picture was the first thing that caught my eyes, it was so beautiful I had to just take a picture and ponder on stuff while looking at it, the leaves aren’t green like a typical tree, yet it achieved such a height that other green trees around it never could, just standing to prove that even if you look different doesn’t necessarily mean you can’t triumph  over the superficial shallowness of some of the individuals.

Stunning is all I have to say.

After I took my time unpacking, I took a long bath in which I couldn’t even get near the water, since it was so cold and apparently it needed some time to be heated, yay ? but I eventually had the guts to go for it, since my parents screaming their heads off wasn’t really the best motivation, but hey ! it worked. so I go outside for a walk around the neighborhood, people look very friendly, emphasis on look since I can’t really keep a convo with them after “hey”.

Walking around I saw alot of animals around, now I’m not much of an animal lover for reasons I will mention later on, but I’m not a hater too, I guess I’m okay with animals as long as they’re cute and harmless, but to stare at me ? I have to stop, and stare back.

-stares back-

A chicken attacked me.

Do you even realize the amount of jokes anyone could come up with when someone says that ? sadly it was true, while I was having the staring competition with the cat, a chicken just jumped and started.. I dont know alright ! I was too traumatized to even think ! do I kick it ? do I run ? run from a chicken ?! hell no ! wait ! oh god she’s going for the head ! oh god the neighbors are having a blast out of this ! -runs home-

I got back for my revenge, I set a detailed plan to get that chicken and then.. I WILL RULE THE UNIVE- wait what ? WHAT ?!

The damn thing got reinforcements !

UNFAIR !

It’s time to retreat, for now, and is the other brown chicken flicking me off ? cause it’s working.. WELL SCREW YOU YOU’RE GONNA END UP IN KFC AS MY FAVORITE MEAL !

Hopefully, but for now we’ll just have to settle for fresh apples.

they were yummy, I think.

I just felt like taking a picture of this.

And I went home, took a nap and woke back up at a perfect timing for me to end the day with my favorite picture..

So peaceful..

I didn't really FAIL, I just lost a combo when I got a little distracted.

So as I was promising myself not to ever, ever, be late for packing, I was checking for every single thing that I forgot, and as always, there’s always this one damn thing that you forget cause its so small yet important…

I forgot my guitar, It wasn’t really all that bad since well, Its still new and I don’t want anything happening to it.

So and for some reason we had to go to Dubai to board the plane, I don’t know why, I mean we’re in Abu Dhabi wouldn’t it make more sense if we.. well you get the main idea.

it wasn’t really all that bad, I spent most of the time txting other friends who were surprisingly awake for some reason, it was like.. what ? 3 am ?

I realized then its not something I should be that suprised about since its a teen\summer thing to just stay awake all night, only I never did that, not on daily basis that is.

And we’re here ! Dubai’s new airport that I fell in love with ! for some reason..

Pointless picture

And after all the freaking out about my being half an hour late and how we were gonna miss the plane, guess what ?

we have arrived 2 hours early !

and I wanted to slaughter my parents !

never the less, I went to take a long around, got me a small happy meal too, yes I do happy meals, really come on they’re good.

For an Achropohbic Claustrophobic guy like me, that is a nightmare.

Hight-o-phobia air-o-pohiba call it whatever you want, my fear of hights is very very severe, just typing this makes me remember the actual incident that made me this way, not much of an incident but at my age back then it was a real big deal, oh well.

Oh and did I mention I was Claustophobic as well ?

So ya, closed flying box isn’t really the best place to put me in.

Ill end this post with the picture of the beautifull sunrise as we were approaching Turkey, the only thing that prevnted me from having a panic attack in the plane.

The beautifull old sun, oh I missed thee.

Alright I know I missed you and all but you're too damn bright.

BOOYA !

and if you didn’t know, I went to Turkey for a coupla weeks so some posts coming up soon !

I remember I spent more time planning on things to accomplish in the summer break and writting them down on a piece of paper, than the time I spent actually STUDYING for my exams, which were important and which I screwed up alot in BUT ! luckily that’s not our subject, not now.

Not ever.

Anywho, between working, finishing my guitar classes and joining a gym, I only got.. zero of those down, and that’s just the start, good god I spent my whole summer playing video games and going to arcades than sitting down and reading my favorite book.. which I lost.. after I forgot what it was about.

and here we are, less than 2 weeks for holidays then HURRAY ! School ! oh how I missed you ! -not- how I love you ! -never- how I LUST for you ! -too much emotion maybe ?-

And what have I accomplished this summer ?

probably this post.

I’ve been always a loyal Nokia fan, actually I still am a Nokia fan but, being the clumsy hyper mofo I am I.. well let’s just say I broke my phone, no need for details cause that’s kind of.. embarrassing.

So not so long back I got my Toefl score, and my SAT scores weren’t too bad either for someone who watched a movie a day before the exam -true story-and my dad was, well, let’s say satisfied for once, and he promised me a Blackberry.’

Why would he ? I wouldn’t know, maybe cause he’s been a Blackberry user for years ? what I knew, is that I was given a choice between a decent Smartphone or a cheap normal phone, and I think my choise was obvious.

I was staring at it throughout the whole ride home, my dad thought I was obsessed or something but I was just having flashbacks of me mocking my friends for their stupidity, since I’m a hardcore phone lover and I always make sure I do my homework before I buy any phone at all, and I was imagining how their reaction would be when they knew I finally bought one.

What do you know ? I got teased by everyone that does not have a Blackberry, know why ?

Well ever since the Blackberry fever gone loose you’d see 9 year olds with flat thumbs cause they use their phones 24\7 and the way most people use them just created this illusionary stereotype of anyone seen carrying one, and apparently, just suddenly I can’t even text any normally anymore, and I have to hide so that people wouldn’t stare at me and talk behind my back.

Well guess what ?

what ? ill tell you what.

My phone does not reflect the way I use it or anything about me for that matter, I know it might for some people, but not me, not now and not ever, this naive way of thinking must end.

Ps. And I will NOT, I resepectfully repeat, will NOT change my phone.

Unfortunately it’s not really that minor, at least not to me, simply because I have come to realize alot of things during summer break.

Things like how I never got along with my classmates until very recently, and I still feel left out even if surrounded by 31 of them, I mean really, do you even know the feeling of being in one room with 31 guys who don’t understand crap of whatever the crap your interested in ?

Seriously, it pisses me off.

Do I have other friends ? Yes

Good friend ? Yes

Lots of em’ ? Well I don’t know about that but ya.

-then why am I bitching, you ask ?

well simply put, most of em’ graduated ! hurray ? I mean I don’t mean to be selfish but hello ? I’ll be left with 3 guys I can stand, in the entire god damn school, why am I in this school again ?

aaaaaaanndd with that, I finish my first blog post, phew now that wasn’t too bad.